My small brain is bombarded again today with big and complex thoughts. Brain signals tune up with philosophical wave lengths and it resulted into omits the thoughts from that subconscious section where they were try to hide before. Nyways, not more digging into technical space and jumping out to normal human behavioral space.
Got an opportunity to think about my personal life and seems like it just completely messed up. After leaving the home, going to complete 6 years on 10th August, I really didn’t do any major thing that can make my family happy. Being the only child, It is obvious that most my closed people have lot of expectations from me and I didn’t disappointed anyone till when I was in India.
But, circumstances are just not in my favor after coming to the USA. Faced a recession, stuck up with the long lasting cycles of Visa status and job security. Weekdays and weekends become months and years… Every year seems to me that, it’s just situations are forcing me to be far away from family…
“My guide book for excuses” is empty now to find any excuses when parents and grandmother asks, “When you are coming to India.” They don’t care about the country, how much you are making, how much you’ve earned, they just want to see their child once. Might be at this stage I won’t understand their pain but I just pray to the almighty not to give me the same pain when I’ll get old and I will have my children and grandchildren.
After spending 6 years in materialistic fulfilled country, why it does seem to me that the wealthy and materialistic life can never bring happiness to you and your family want.
After working in high paid jobs, at one of the top most locations in the world, for the challenging projects, why this things are not helping to make me happy.
The expected question arises in my mind what is real happiness? I think, It depends on person, ages, social life and present situation. For example, a small block building game can make a small child happy, while gaining the profits in stock market makes a trader and a firm happy. But these all are said to have short term happiness. And I have no idea about long term happiness.
I remember the words one of my finance professor Phiroz Bhagat used to say, “Happiness is defined as the integrity of
- smile on others faces because of you
- to fulfill your parent’s wish when they want
- you don’t have questions with your life, and the last
- you love yourself and all love you too the way you are*
*doesn’t included bad habits
Nonetheless to say that, he is also an author and a writer. J..
It must have been written tons of articles about happiness and how to be happy. (The result from survey says that, if you read those articles on how to be happy, you will feel more depressed…J )
Thoughts just don’t want to stop… abt career, to start a business, abut to settle my cousins back in india, to get a big house for parents , to buy the house in the usa, to show them the world ( starting from the USA) , to make them happy by getting married… to start a charity trust to help the needy people… Oh gosh…. Just please stop….
